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It's Been Like a Year...I think??
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Probably more than a year...But hi any one that still follows me. ^^
Just finished going to WonderCon. Wooooo
I want to use my dA more again. Make art and upload it. There's a LOT I want to do, haha. Well, I came onto dA to announce that I have a twitter now...? Like that's important. I don't really use it anyway. LOL. AND IT HASN'T EVEN BEEN A WEEK.
I'm also seriously considering [finally] putting myself on a table for a convention. Don't know which convention. Haven't decided on merch yet. I know a few years back when I had more dreams and less of a grasp on reality that I wanted to do my dolls. Right now, I am leaning more towards that and pillows/other plushes. Especially since I don't have a high confidence in my art still. Also want to start a webcomic. Also just don't want to do grad school...
Oh, that's right..Some of you may not know, but I graduated from college last year in December! Two quarters early [my school was on quarter system]!
And now I'm a lowly NEET too unsure of herself to know if she wants to submit to grad school and get a teaching credential formally. Especially after getting a taste of working at an aquarium as a volunteer and LOVING it. SO MUCH MORE THAN TEACHING. What is my life? Why can't I just settle down? orz
Well, thank you quiet followers, if you're there. If you read. One thing that's good about me not coming on often enough is not knowing if any of you are still there, so I can ramble on without fear of judgement.
Probably more than a year...But hi any one that still follows me. ^^
Just finished going to WonderCon. Wooooo
I want to use my dA more again. Make art and upload it. There's a LOT I want to do, haha. Well, I came onto dA to announce that I have a twitter now...? Like that's important. I don't really use it anyway. LOL. AND IT HASN'T EVEN BEEN A WEEK.
I'm also seriously considering [finally] putting myself on a table for a convention. Don't know which convention. Haven't decided on merch yet. I know a few years back when I had more dreams and less of a grasp on reality that I wanted to do my dolls. Right now, I am leaning more towards that and pillows/other plushes. Especially since I don't have a high confidence in my art still. Also want to start a webcomic. Also just don't want to do grad school...
Oh, that's right..Some of you may not know, but I graduated from college last year in December! Two quarters early [my school was on quarter system]!
And now I'm a lowly NEET too unsure of herself to know if she wants to submit to grad school and get a teaching credential formally. Especially after getting a taste of working at an aquarium as a volunteer and LOVING it. SO MUCH MORE THAN TEACHING. What is my life? Why can't I just settle down? orzWell, thank you quiet followers, if you're there. If you read. One thing that's good about me not coming on often enough is not knowing if any of you are still there, so I can ramble on without fear of judgement.
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My current want-to-do list:
Make Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles fanart
wcb [ft, se, o/g]
My current want-to-do list:
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Still Kind of Unbelievable
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By the way! I'll be going to the LoK/A:TLA gallery on Saturday!
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By the way! I'll be going to the LoK/A:TLA gallery on Saturday!
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I think I do deserve some amount of bragging rights…
For the longest time during my childhood, I had tried my hardest to struggle to be recognized for or by my art. Like everyone else, I had continuously compared myself to others, and seeing the girls I went to high school with have so much more capability than me was infuriating. I'm not going to lie; I have seriously been jealous of their abilities and always tried to apply myself in a different direction to find an art and a style that not only appealed to me, but that I thought would appeal to a lot of people. Sometimes, even when I tried conforming, nothing happened. I recognize that everyone has a different style and a very different fact that even if someone thinks what you've made is cool, they still wouldn't go through the trouble of liking or sharing it. That's just how people function. After so many years, I had gotten used to it. I tried to change myself so much, but at one point, I realized changing myself wasn't worth it anymore. Mostly now, I just try to do what I want to do. Stick to experimentation for me because I want to improve my own ability to do something.
Although what happened is basically a small-scale cameo, it makes me unbelievably happy to know at some point my work was received by one of the creators of a cartoon so important to me in my childhood and now. When I realize that it had also been recognized as "worthy" enough [or just the right amount of creepy, if you take into consideration how the episode went, lol] to appear, my ecstaticism increases by leaps and bounds. Honestly, staying a part of the art community and continuing art, as much as I love it, has been one of the most painful things for me. I was recognized as good or great at drawing by some [just family and friends, and at that point, no matter how true and sincere they are, you guiltily feel like it was just under obligation], but the people I had always wanted to appeal to [really the masses] hardly gave me the time of day. It's extremely difficult to continue doing something when you don't get recognition from putting your all in.
From what I hear and see with other people--other artists [visual, literary, musical, performing]--they still have that sentiment: that their stuff is not "good enough." It would be so much easier if what you make could reach the people that would sincerely show their appreciation for your creation, but that's not how the world runs, obviously. The best thing to do that had taken me a long time to realize is to keep going at it so long as it makes you happy. You shouldn't use "likes," "faves," or "shares" dictate what you want to do. It's one of the most difficult things, but it is also so important.
I say this a lot, but it's because I really mean it and don't really know many other ways to convey it, but thanks for following me, and thanks for your quiet support.
For the longest time during my childhood, I had tried my hardest to struggle to be recognized for or by my art. Like everyone else, I had continuously compared myself to others, and seeing the girls I went to high school with have so much more capability than me was infuriating. I'm not going to lie; I have seriously been jealous of their abilities and always tried to apply myself in a different direction to find an art and a style that not only appealed to me, but that I thought would appeal to a lot of people. Sometimes, even when I tried conforming, nothing happened. I recognize that everyone has a different style and a very different fact that even if someone thinks what you've made is cool, they still wouldn't go through the trouble of liking or sharing it. That's just how people function. After so many years, I had gotten used to it. I tried to change myself so much, but at one point, I realized changing myself wasn't worth it anymore. Mostly now, I just try to do what I want to do. Stick to experimentation for me because I want to improve my own ability to do something.
Although what happened is basically a small-scale cameo, it makes me unbelievably happy to know at some point my work was received by one of the creators of a cartoon so important to me in my childhood and now. When I realize that it had also been recognized as "worthy" enough [or just the right amount of creepy, if you take into consideration how the episode went, lol] to appear, my ecstaticism increases by leaps and bounds. Honestly, staying a part of the art community and continuing art, as much as I love it, has been one of the most painful things for me. I was recognized as good or great at drawing by some [just family and friends, and at that point, no matter how true and sincere they are, you guiltily feel like it was just under obligation], but the people I had always wanted to appeal to [really the masses] hardly gave me the time of day. It's extremely difficult to continue doing something when you don't get recognition from putting your all in.
From what I hear and see with other people--other artists [visual, literary, musical, performing]--they still have that sentiment: that their stuff is not "good enough." It would be so much easier if what you make could reach the people that would sincerely show their appreciation for your creation, but that's not how the world runs, obviously. The best thing to do that had taken me a long time to realize is to keep going at it so long as it makes you happy. You shouldn't use "likes," "faves," or "shares" dictate what you want to do. It's one of the most difficult things, but it is also so important.
I say this a lot, but it's because I really mean it and don't really know many other ways to convey it, but thanks for following me, and thanks for your quiet support.
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My current want-to-do list:
Make Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles fanart
wcb [ft, se, o/g]
Finish the completed anime on my watch list
My current want-to-do list:
Make Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles fanart wcb [ft, se, o/g] Finish the completed anime on my watch listJoin the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
Doll Commissions Reopened!!
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And they're open again!!
To be honest, that's all I'm really updating my journal for. Not much else to update for.
By the way, did anyone else notice the Nuktuk doll in episode 9 of LoK's book 3 shared very similar elements to my style of doll making?
To be honest, that's all I'm really updating my journal for. Not much else to update for.
By the way, did anyone else notice the Nuktuk doll in episode 9 of LoK's book 3 shared very similar elements to my style of doll making?
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My current want-to-do list:
Make Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles fanart
wcb [ft, se, o/g]
Finish the completed anime on my watch list
My current want-to-do list:
Make Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles fanart wcb [ft, se, o/g] Finish the completed anime on my watch listJoin the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
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It's been a while, huh? I last posted the end of spring break, and now it's summer school. Summer school here/for me is only half the time of the usual quarter because classes are condensed so that there's more schooling per course per week. Actually, it's almost the end of summer school, lol. I'll be back in my hometown next week. And then, on to working for a few days as a substitute art instructor.
I'm kind of nervous about that, to be honest. I haven't arted in a long time [in traditional media], so I don't know how well this will go over. Oh--I'm working as an art sub at the studio where I took classes at for several years. Last time I went to the studio, so many things had been rearranged that I had trouble locating some art supplies. Well, at least I'll be getting some training before subbing. It'll also be nice to get the experience of teaching kids.
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I might be going to San Fran this weekend for Jpop Summit [actually just for the ramen, but that's hosted by Jpop Summit]. I say "might" because I still haven't definitely decided. My main reason for not going, I think, it cash and expenses. My other reason for not going that I have my finals next week, and I need to study for my macro econ final otherwise it'll destroy my GPA. OTL [I also have a philosophy final, but it won't be bad even if I only get a C since I'm taking it credit/no credit]
I'll probably end up going to San Fran this weekend anyway even after all my bitching, lol. Because I really want to hang out with my roommate, and if I don't go, I won't be able to hang out with her…but I really do need to study, so I don't know.. guuuu =n=
I'm kind of nervous about that, to be honest. I haven't arted in a long time [in traditional media], so I don't know how well this will go over. Oh--I'm working as an art sub at the studio where I took classes at for several years. Last time I went to the studio, so many things had been rearranged that I had trouble locating some art supplies. Well, at least I'll be getting some training before subbing. It'll also be nice to get the experience of teaching kids.
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I might be going to San Fran this weekend for Jpop Summit [actually just for the ramen, but that's hosted by Jpop Summit]. I say "might" because I still haven't definitely decided. My main reason for not going, I think, it cash and expenses. My other reason for not going that I have my finals next week, and I need to study for my macro econ final otherwise it'll destroy my GPA. OTL [I also have a philosophy final, but it won't be bad even if I only get a C since I'm taking it credit/no credit]
I'll probably end up going to San Fran this weekend anyway even after all my bitching, lol. Because I really want to hang out with my roommate, and if I don't go, I won't be able to hang out with her…but I really do need to study, so I don't know.. guuuu =n=
Alright, thanks for listening!
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My current want-to-do list:
Make Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles fanart
wcb [ft, se, o/g]
Finish the completed anime on my watch list
make cosplay skirt
My current want-to-do list:
Make Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles fanart wcb [ft, se, o/g] Finish the completed anime on my watch list make cosplay skirtJoin the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
Some updates on my life + Fanime 2014
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I realized that I haven't made a journal in a while, so I felt like changing it up a bit.
So, I've done something stupid and started getting back into watching anime. I've also started to read manga less often because of the tediousness of it [i.e. checking for new updates and reading them]. Plus, with manga, I usually end up reading it when I'm bored in class, and that has affected my grades. At least, from what I've noticed so far.
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Since I don't think I'll be writing another journal for a long time, I'll announce this now: I'll be going to Fanime 2014 [San Jose, CA, USA]! Not tabling [no products to sell + missed the audition deadline, but not too bummed about it, tbh], but I'll be enjoying the con with a roommate, her boyfriend, some of their friends, and a friend named Dennis.
If you're going and see me [though I'm not sure how you would know who I am], don't be afraid to say hi. Only if you want to though. No pressure.
As for cosplay line-up, so far I'm only really considering doing Korra [Legend of Korra] and Ryuko [Kill la Kill]. By the way, that's Korra from Book One: Air [i.e. season one] and Ryuko's first outfit and her last outfit [I've already made the jacket and gotten the shirt. All that's left is the skirt]. If time and skill permits, I'll also be doing Gamagoori Ira in a group-cos. Or if I get enough money, there'll be a real low maintenance Hanji Zoe [Shingeki no Kyoujin/Attack on Titan]. I don't have enough cold weather resistance to reuse Kida for Fanime. Though I'll probably be editing her costume a bit - you know, improving it a bit.
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In other news, I'm going to be off spring break after Monday. TT_TT
Same as always: happy to not be in my hometown, not ecstatic to be going back to classes.
Honestly, because I'm going to be a teacher [and not an architect now] I'll never really stop "going to school," if you get what I mean. You know what we need? We need to have a mandatory three year gap between high school and college to live life and experience more life before we even try to decide what we want to do as a profession for the rest of our lives. Or maybe another god-like gap between education and going to work so we can travel and have a chance to live life before going to work for the rest our lives. Why? Because our current system [at least in California] has us basically working for our job/career starting at the young age range of 4-6 and then continuing to focus on "career" and "life-job" until we're dead. It's not a large problem for people who love their jobs to the point that it's not work for them, but that doesn't change that people need to have some time to relax.
I don't know if I'm just blaming the system, but I feel like I would be more lax and less stiff if I could spare more thoughts and more time to not focus on the "future." It could be my upbringing and the system or just my personality, but I kind of wish I could have a logical reason to not be so "no nonsense." And it's not some kind of thing where I can just go, "Okay, I'm just not going to care anymore." It's so ingrained in me to be strict on myself that it's not something so easily fixed, dig?
Okay, busy day tomorrow, so I'm off to bed.
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g'night! luv you all~ <3
So, I've done something stupid and started getting back into watching anime. I've also started to read manga less often because of the tediousness of it [i.e. checking for new updates and reading them]. Plus, with manga, I usually end up reading it when I'm bored in class, and that has affected my grades. At least, from what I've noticed so far.
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Since I don't think I'll be writing another journal for a long time, I'll announce this now: I'll be going to Fanime 2014 [San Jose, CA, USA]! Not tabling [no products to sell + missed the audition deadline, but not too bummed about it, tbh], but I'll be enjoying the con with a roommate, her boyfriend, some of their friends, and a friend named Dennis.
If you're going and see me [though I'm not sure how you would know who I am], don't be afraid to say hi. Only if you want to though. No pressure.
As for cosplay line-up, so far I'm only really considering doing Korra [Legend of Korra] and Ryuko [Kill la Kill]. By the way, that's Korra from Book One: Air [i.e. season one] and Ryuko's first outfit and her last outfit [I've already made the jacket and gotten the shirt. All that's left is the skirt]. If time and skill permits, I'll also be doing Gamagoori Ira in a group-cos. Or if I get enough money, there'll be a real low maintenance Hanji Zoe [Shingeki no Kyoujin/Attack on Titan]. I don't have enough cold weather resistance to reuse Kida for Fanime. Though I'll probably be editing her costume a bit - you know, improving it a bit.
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In other news, I'm going to be off spring break after Monday. TT_TT
Same as always: happy to not be in my hometown, not ecstatic to be going back to classes.
Honestly, because I'm going to be a teacher [and not an architect now] I'll never really stop "going to school," if you get what I mean. You know what we need? We need to have a mandatory three year gap between high school and college to live life and experience more life before we even try to decide what we want to do as a profession for the rest of our lives. Or maybe another god-like gap between education and going to work so we can travel and have a chance to live life before going to work for the rest our lives. Why? Because our current system [at least in California] has us basically working for our job/career starting at the young age range of 4-6 and then continuing to focus on "career" and "life-job" until we're dead. It's not a large problem for people who love their jobs to the point that it's not work for them, but that doesn't change that people need to have some time to relax.
I don't know if I'm just blaming the system, but I feel like I would be more lax and less stiff if I could spare more thoughts and more time to not focus on the "future." It could be my upbringing and the system or just my personality, but I kind of wish I could have a logical reason to not be so "no nonsense." And it's not some kind of thing where I can just go, "Okay, I'm just not going to care anymore." It's so ingrained in me to be strict on myself that it's not something so easily fixed, dig?
Okay, busy day tomorrow, so I'm off to bed.
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g'night! luv you all~ <3
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My current want-to-do list:
Make Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles fanart
wcb [ft, se, o/g]
make cosplay skirt
Make doll versions of Kagami, Kuroko, and Aomine from Kuroko no Basuke
My current want-to-do list:
Make Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles fanart wcb [ft, se, o/g] make cosplay skirt Make doll versions of Kagami, Kuroko, and Aomine from Kuroko no BasukeJoin the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In